its 22nd september. exactly one more month to my birthday. which also means 30 days to olevel. i'm really very nervous and worried. need your support. ): hmmms..... i'm now thinking of 100 things to do after olevel! and one of them includes an outing with YOU! so happy! rofl. happyhappy! btw, anyone any ideas? =D i'm only at 20? ): gahhhhh!! teeeheees! hope my 100 things can motivate me to strive harder for olevel.

i must not get complacent. i must not go too easy on myself. i must work hard. my head cannot grow too big. i must continue to work even harder for olevels! just only a few little marks will cause me to drop to a B or C or even a D. so, i must continue to jiayou! continue to study and revise!

sweet sixteen this year. my hopes are unusually high and i dont know why. what if..... it turns out disastrous again? what if..... its nothing this year. what if it turns sour? i dont want. there are so many things that i want this year but will i get it? will i be able to celebrate my birthday this year? 70% no. cause of stupid olevel. will my birthday this year be sweet? or like......... 2 years back? another heatbreak? another nightmare?

today received s.s, emaths and english. sorry. i dont mean to be mean to the people who didn't do well. but i'm really happy i scored well. unexpectedly, the paper that i cried in got an a2. really stun. i thought i didn't do well cause i blanked out last minute. but really, i'm so happy. english was also whoa. all i can say is this 2 papers really shocked me. but i'm sure my history will pull my s.s. down. awwwwww.... ):

nevermind. beverley! smile smile! (:
the feeling is weak but i know i do like you. ^^