i'll never be able to get rid of that stupid feeling. i'll remember my dearest country but leave these stupid memories behind. i want to be somewhere else. totally new. where i dont know anyone. start afresh. am i still running away from the problem? but the fact is, i really haven't found someone whom i can share anything and everything anytime, anywhere. someone whom i wont feel 不好意思 at all. i had once. but i lost it. then i thought i had another but then i was too naive. why would someone so popular like you need me as a best friend? i really dont know....

shit amaths and physics today. first 2 papers that i sleep. totally feel like giving up.

hate myself. hate you. hate school. hate friendships. hate heartbreaks. hate my life.