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its 22nd september. exactly one more month to my birthday. which also means 30 days to olevel. i'm really very nervous and worried. need your support. ): hmmms..... i'm now thinking of 100 things to do after olevel! and one of them includes an outing with YOU! so happy! rofl. happyhappy! btw, anyone any ideas? =D i'm only at 20? ): gahhhhh!! teeeheees! hope my 100 things can motivate me to strive harder for olevel.

i must not get complacent. i must not go too easy on myself. i must work hard. my head cannot grow too big. i must continue to work even harder for olevels! just only a few little marks will cause me to drop to a B or C or even a D. so, i must continue to jiayou! continue to study and revise!

sweet sixteen this year. my hopes are unusually high and i dont know why. what if..... it turns out disastrous again? what if..... its nothing this year. what if it turns sour? i dont want. there are so many things that i want this year but will i get it? will i be able to celebrate my birthday this year? 70% no. cause of stupid olevel. will my birthday this year be sweet? or like......... 2 years back? another heatbreak? another nightmare?

today received s.s, emaths and english. sorry. i dont mean to be mean to the people who didn't do well. but i'm really happy i scored well. unexpectedly, the paper that i cried in got an a2. really stun. i thought i didn't do well cause i blanked out last minute. but really, i'm so happy. english was also whoa. all i can say is this 2 papers really shocked me. but i'm sure my history will pull my s.s. down. awwwwww.... ):

nevermind. beverley! smile smile! (:
the feeling is weak but i know i do like you. ^^

finally, i'm ready. (: just hope everything will turn out well. so excited to show you everything you know! UGHHHH! control! lols! =D i really really hope you will like it manxsz. teeeheees! love you lahhh! (:

why do i have a feeling everything is going to change again?

i'll never be able to get rid of that stupid feeling. i'll remember my dearest country but leave these stupid memories behind. i want to be somewhere else. totally new. where i dont know anyone. start afresh. am i still running away from the problem? but the fact is, i really haven't found someone whom i can share anything and everything anytime, anywhere. someone whom i wont feel 不好意思 at all. i had once. but i lost it. then i thought i had another but then i was too naive. why would someone so popular like you need me as a best friend? i really dont know....

shit amaths and physics today. first 2 papers that i sleep. totally feel like giving up.

hate myself. hate you. hate school. hate friendships. hate heartbreaks. hate my life.

gahhhh! ): so bad! i totally never study AT ALL. (: had a fun day today! hari raya house visiting was thumbs up. night scenery with my family was woots! love it! i'm going to sleep! NOT STUDYING! but thennnnnnn..... amaths and physics... HOW?! ): oh whatever! =P

i dont know what to say.......

'After going one big round, its still you' isn't it a bit too late to say all that? yes. i want our friendship back badly but i'l never be able to forget and you'll never know the nights i spent curled up on my bed crying over our friendship, our arguments, our happy memories.. things to be like the past? i also want. but you just walked out of my life and i have to face all those memories alone but now, you wanna be back again? once bitten, twice shy. i dont know how to continue this friendship from where we left off, pretending nothing of those heartbreaking stuff happened.

i'm a little not over you.... this is real bad.

yay yay yay! we're going to watch movie! so excited for prelims to hurry end! =D omg!

haiish! i dont know. sensei say i'm improving but i feel i'm getting lousier. its like i'm stucked and not improving. so sad. how how how! what to do? i wanna improve i wanna improve! I WANT TO IMPROVE!!!!! ): happyhappy.